That was the word I was looking for.
The feeling was rolling around in my head and I just couldn’t quite put my finger on what it was exactly.
I’ve seen so many recommendations and suggestions for what to do ‘during this time at home’ but they aren’t very realistic.
Write a book
Learn a new language
Clean and organize
Learn a new skill
Become a teacher
Start making all meals from scratch
I’m not even sure what day it is most of the time and the arguments with a teenager about e-learning aren’t always worth it.
I’m frozen in time, unable to move forward and unwilling to move backwards. All those great ideas sitting out there, all the work I could be doing, all the fabulous projects I should be working on….not happening.
Because I’m frozen with the thoughts of it all.
So I’m here to say…..whatever it is you’re feeling, however it is this world wide crisis is making your soul and heart hurt…it’s ok.
None of us know what’s going on, what the future holds, or how we’ll look as a world in 2 months.
No matter what side of the thought process you’re on concerning the seriousness of it all, you know someone that’s dealing with a lost job, lower income, fear for older or sick loved ones, or having to deal with the public on the front lines as a caregiver…and that’s scary. Especially if it’s you that fits that description.
The isolation can be devastating…we were made to love and give affection, and not being able to do that or see and hug loved ones is so hard. The lack of connection is overwhelming and you begin to wonder if this is the new norm, and when you’ll be able to hug your family, laugh around a dinner table, and go outside without fear.
It’s ok to be afraid. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok to not know what to do.
We’ll get through this, I’m sure of it. We’ll look different when it’s over, but we’re unbreakable and we will survive.
If you want to share how you’re feeling in all this, sometimes that’s helpful just to get it out and let someone know how you’re doing. Laughter is the best medicine, but reality hits pretty hard some days, too. It’s hard to be strong all the time….
with Glitter & Grace,